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so much for a merry fuckign christmas.
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[14 Dec 2004|04:38pm] |
maybe to regress is to progress
shall i fall back into the repetition
gracing myself with the presence
gathering from the world
what love i could never receive
from you
i can do nothing but shiver in disgust
tears tease me; i can't will them to come
soon enough
but they hesitate for days and weeks
i play music to charm them out,
but they are shy
like arrows through hearts
just kill me beautifully
with a smile on my face
one tear
while i'm singing
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[04 Dec 2004|11:49am] |
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Its 11:49 on a Saturday. And so far, my weekend hs been ridiculous.
So Thursday night, I bring Kandis & Jackie home after schoool, then Rob Ben and Dan show up, Then Greg Brodie and Lee show up, Then Natalie and Jess Show up, Then jaclyn, Chloe, Patricia show up. Then Ross and Lino show up. Then Susan adn Robyn show up. Thn Frser and Lora show up. then mike comes home with Alex, Radek, Timmy, Gabe, Bryan, and Murray. The Colleen, and abotu 4 other people show up. That was Thursday night at my house.
Then Friday...
I wake up, greg and brodie come over at aboeu 12, stay till about 2ish.
THen i nap, relax and get all washed.
Brodie comes back... then my brother goes out,a nd Jess and kara, come over, and mike isnt home so they hang otu wiht me. Then we all go out, pick up kandis and come back to my place, then we plan whats goignon for tomorrow.
So now its noon on a saturday, and heres todays plans.
Me, Brodie, kandis, brady, Maybe Brian, Maybe Jerod, and Maybe C.H *=)* weill come over... God i hope so it will be fun.
and tada
im going bck to bed
i was on thephoen till 2:30 last night
WIth Ross
hes so cool
and hes scottish
Hes the man
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[30 Nov 2004|06:20pm] |
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is this all we have?
... ephhing hell.
im just in the worst mood. NOthing can cheer me up, nothing.
I just keep compmlaining to myself.
i need someone.
i just doo.
the people i meet
always seem to fit but it never works out
never.
nothing ever does
and i see evryone else every day so happy with one another
and im just left back to sit and watch as everyone goes except me.
im just left there by myself to have to know more and more that im becoming nothing... just breaking away into a person with no purpose.
No purpose, but to amuse, thats it.
its never worked out
so what would make anything change now?
it wont.
so ill just go
and be my usual self
in hopes of a better day tomorrow
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[17 Nov 2004|08:55pm] |
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this me hate circles even more.
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[17 Nov 2004|04:18pm] |
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wow
hes so funny
hahahahahahaaah
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[10 Nov 2004|09:04pm] |
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for fucks sake
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| nobody said it was easy... |
[07 Nov 2004|02:44pm] |
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No one ever said it would be so hard....
I'm going back to the start.
There's some music that honestly makes you happy, although people say its the most depressing band they've ever heard, i think its amazing. Haha, funny how that works.
Anyways, for a tiny bit of excitement, I find myself growing more and more attachted to him every day.
And its amazing how you can get sick of someone so fast.
Absolutley amazing.
Monday, (tomorrow) it will all happen.
Ill give you the update from there
I might back out
but
hopefully it will all go as planned.
have heart my dear.
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[02 Nov 2004|01:18pm] |
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its so hard
to look at something you cant have
or can you?
you don't know what to do or say
or even ask
so what can you do?
nothing
what can you say?
nothing
just let it pass
and know that
something you could
[or couldn't]
have
its gone forever
or has it just begun?
if only i knew
i wouldnt have to feel this way
ever again
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[01 Nov 2004|08:01pm] |
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[31 Oct 2004|02:31am] |
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word! i am currently sitting in emmas house, with... emma, (of course), jaclyn, jackie, natalie, kate, ashley, jess, chloe, and patricia. an excellent night, an excellent night indeed.
much fun
much
fun
well
not a bad weekend...
so peace
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[24 Oct 2004|12:00pm] |
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well no, its not that i don't trust anyone anymore, becuase i do, its just that i know if i say one thing to someone, they'll tell someone else... no, its not that they would, its just that they could.
thats like giving someone a loaded gun.
they could shoot you.
selfish, rude, abnoxious, ..
but i dont seem to mind
maybe ill keep the image of the (not so) innocent people
who claim to be something they aren't
im so sure that its true
what you claim to be
but maybe for a second...
youll think about someone else
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[23 Oct 2004|06:39pm] |
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I'm trying hard to forget that cold October day,
When love challenged freedom to a fist fight, freedom looked victorious
But no one was prepared for what would happen on that baseball diamond
When love reached beneath her plaid jumper, pulled out a switchblade and drove it...
Directly through the heart of St. Angeles.
Any notion of self government was left bleeding on the pitchers mound
 my 4 boys..=)
I don't know how this is possible, but I seemed to have put myself in the worst possible mood I have ever been in, in my entire life. I have no idea how, but I've managed to do it.
ANd it fucking sucks
fuck you
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[23 Oct 2004|03:42pm] |
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daytime.. twighlight.. pitchblack
unsent letters
this is all we had.
but anywyas, now that michelles has a second piercing in her toung its awesome. ange, michelle, jackie, natalie slept here last night. =)
whatevver
j im out
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| th4e names bond |
[21 Oct 2004|09:09pm] |
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WELL bond may be the name...
but for fucks and giggles
my tummy is swelling like a balloon...
im alergic to foood... cause when i eat it i swell up.. like i gain eight.
hahahahah
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[20 Oct 2004|09:16pm] |
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waterwings, and other poolside fasion... faux pas?
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| i put my hand in my pocket |
[17 Oct 2004|08:47pm] |
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oh ill just smile and nod
and avoid the obvious.
how could this possibly be what i want?
what makes me... the slightest bit optimistic
are you happy now?
is the whole world happy?
does everyone see the shining image of a smiling girl?
that is care-free, and generous?
why does it even matter
when this smiling girl never existed
and its all just a figment of your imagination
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| big house, small city |
[17 Oct 2004|07:05pm] |
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well, been a semi-interesting weekend.
nothing to get too excited about.
besides that fact im currently in my cousins house... in oakville, which is probably the nicest house i've ever been in.
last night... 11 people came to my dads =| me, mitch, rob, spence, ben, dan, mike, ashley, andrea, amanda, ange, michelle.. it was fun that i got to see them.
i need to start involving some physical activity in my life.. seeming how as of none i have never partaken in anything of that sort.. it's about time i started. im.. just your regular little fat lazy white kid.
whatevski
peace
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[14 Oct 2004|08:39pm] |
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i have offically downloaded 4 ringtones.
1) SAFETY DANCE - men without hats
2) its my life - no doubt
3) The Scientist - Coldplay
4) Bittersweet symphony - The verve
They are all beautiful
I hurt myself today, to see if i still feel..
I get so fucking irritated all the time
especially when im like this, the smallest thing pisses me off
For example: if we are all upstairs and someone sits down somehwer ei dont want them to
i FLIP out
like
what the fuck... thats just ridiculous
Rise with The FaLLen ...Birthday tomorrow says:
i want you to be happy
i wish
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